Monday, June 9, 2008

Happy Birthday, Little Boy!

This is purely personal. Today is our son's 3rd birthday. Three years ago today, I was lying on an operating table knowing there was a decent chance I would not wake up again on this earth and my husband would be the one to welcome our little guy alone.

A few months before my due date, I was diagnosed with a VERY rare pregnancy complication. In order to save my life and my son's, we needed to deliver early. A risky delivery with many specialists and a hysterectomy, was the only chance at saving my life. I really struggled going into this situation. I knew that God would not want me to hang onto my family more tightly than him. But I also had a human heart of a wife and a mother who desperately wanted to be on this earth with my family.

The morning I was wheeled in the OR, I was still struggling and fighting back tears. I noticed that country music was blaring in the operating room, which seemed a bit inappropriate considering the seriousness of the situation. I continued to pray, when all of the sudden, I heard these words over the radio,

I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh, I'm already there.

I know that this song is a sappy love song, but in that moment, God gave me his love song and brought peace.

Happy Birthday, Little Man!


Windy said...

Wow! Happy Birthday to your son! This post made me tear up, as I was in the same position with my son about 3 1/2 years ago (I had severe preeclampsia, which sounds different from what you suffered from, but we had the same worries going into the emergency c section) God protected us both though!! Your blog is a blessing to me! Take care!

Anonymous said...

Happy birthday to the little one! Your story was so real to me. I had a serious situation with my pregnancy and my husband and family were told I wouldn't make it. God chose to take our little guy. A very sad time for us, especially since he was our first, but I know there's a reason for everything.
Enjoy that little boy, in fact, give him a big hug just from me!

Chief Family Officer said...

Wow, that may be the most amazing birth story I've ever read! I'm very glad you survived. Happy Birthday to your son!

@anon - I'm so sorry for your loss and moved by your faith.

Mom said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to a very special grandson! Today is a day to REJIOICE & BE GLAD! This made me stop and remember and I am overwhelmed with THANKSGIVING ! Love you all Mom

Kim said...

WOW! I am so happy that God answered your prayer and that you are here to see your precious son turn 3 yrs. old. What a tearful birth story with a wonderful future.
Happy Birthday little guy!